Best Value Ever!

This really is the best value that I have ever experienced in my life of consumption. Period. End of story.

I Need to Vent

OK. I confess. I like attention. And who doesn't? Everyone likes a certain amount of attention. I do not like too much attention; that is just annoying, burdensome and intrusive. What I mean by "I like attention" is that I like to do things that I love to do, for people who care enough to pay attention to me, and I like to do them well enough that it pleases me and everyone around me. Is that so much to ask? That is what I want to do. But it just so happens that I like to sing, dance, play the piano, the violin, make people laugh and just in general, entertain people. So, according to some people’s line of thought, therefore I am shallow and I only want to be seen and to be famous and I am the scum of the earth. At least that is what I feel like it means to like to do what I want to do. Which is very frustrating!!! I mean, because of my hobbies I have thought about trying out for American Idol. Is that a sin? Because of my hobbies, I have wanted to be an actress. Is that a sin? Because of my hobbies, I have wanted to be in films and sign with a talent agency. IS THAT A SIN?? For Pete’s sake. Really. I feel like I live in world where if I told my friends that I tried out for American Idol then everyone would instantly think, "Oh, she is one of THOSE people. Yeah, she must think she is really great. Goodness, she just dropped down a couple of levels on my scale of sophistication. I am going to judge her right now as look her straight in the face and tell her how excited I am for her." I mean, come on. We all know that we all have thought it at some time or another, or at least have thought that someone else was thinking it. I just hate this world we live in sometimes. Isn't there any such thing as an innocent desire anymore? Why do we all have to be so judgmental and critical? It makes me feel like I cannot be myself. Which is one of the worst feelings in the world. Trust me. I feel it. All. The. Time.
Please forgive my bashing. I just really needed to vent somewhere.

Fighting

I am sick and tired of fighting. And it is not the kind of fighting that you would first think of. It is the constant fighting against all of my natural desires. I am sick and tired of fighting against sleep to get my homework done. I am tired of fighting against all urges to spend time with my husband and family in order to get homework done. I am tired of fighting against time in general, just so that I can get a stupid homework assignment turned in on time. I am tired of it!! I am tired of fighting. I am tired of homework. I know it is important, I know that I cannot understand what I am doing without having some take-home work. But I hate it. I am tired of it.

THE END